Often times you are so painful to be around, that I tend to forget the blessings that you bring.
I know we don’t get along very well, and lately I’ve found myself yelling at you, outside in the middle of the night.
The past two days you’ve given my daughter a fever, which meant she was stuck in bed pretty much the entire time. You leave her exhausted, with painful joints, crazy rituals she has to do, before moving on, and little desire to eat.
You turn her into something akin to a caged wild animal.
You overextend your welcome more then any house guest I’ve ever had, and just when I think you are gone, you return like a tsunami.
You have also blessed us. You have made my 8 year old daughter, stronger then most adults. You have softened her heart towards others, and showed her that every child has a unique journey, and is so very precious.
You have taught me to go way out of my comfort zone, and to surround myself with an incredible tribe of women who also know you well.
Most of all, you have taught me to appreciate and cling to the precious glimpses of normalcy, like the one we got tonight, as my daughter loved on our Mammoth Donkey, EmmaKate.
Don’t get me wrong. I still hate you. We are still in this fight with you, and we have no plans of stopping.
In fact, you need to know, that we will win this. It may take some time, but we will. Count on it.